everything | colored | irridiscent
the world to me
looks like light through
stained glass panels
but all it sees in me are
my cold shaded eyes
and feels only my
cold hollow heart
not knowing
how much i am
in love with it
and admiring it
from the center
of my room
[7:25 PM] been having sort of, a 'communication' with a great girl for a couple of months now. am earning a little of her trust here and there. i really like her, and i never fell short of telling that to her. when we first met, i was like really miserable looking because i've been depressed for a month.
but as my gal buddy would say, it was nice that i was smiling again. she added, "she must be really nice for someone too choosy". i don't think am choosy. maybe i just know what i am looking for.
still, i can keep this up. i never had this kind of feeling before. it may take a couple or more months, but for some reason, i'll keep on trying to be near her. for once in a long while, i am sure of something am doing.
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Friday, April 25[12:28 AM] i liked doodling and sketching even at a young age. a perfectionist as well. when i draw spaceships, i want it to be the perfect killing machine. but with my untrained hand, i would often draw a line a little off the angle i wanted. but i don't erase it. i put lines beside it in such a way that it will look like it's part of the ship. oftentimes, i place another one like it on the other side of the ship to make it look symmetrical.
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Thursday, April 17[1:59 AM] it's particularly hot today. and not a lot of people around (maybe in some resort or something), since it's holy week and all. but here in the room where i'm sleeping in, it's kinda cool because of the breeze coming from the window facing the coffee plantations. i wonder how old this house is? three? four decades? the walls are testament to the numerous termite infestations it has gone through the years. where our neighbors already had their houses cemented, ours is still all wood.
but ... there in it lies its charm.
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Wednesday, April 16[5:16 AM] looking through stained glass windows ...
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