everything | colored | irridiscent
the world to me
looks like light through
stained glass panels
but all it sees in me are
my cold shaded eyes
and feels only my
cold hollow heart
not knowing
how much i am
in love with it
and admiring it
from the center
of my room
[8:46 AM] ahh, the capricious nature of humans ... the capricious nature of my heart :(
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Wednesday, May 21[3:31 AM] something i made for a fan :)
Abby's Moon
- Q. Montejo -
a little awake, too silly to sleep
believing i'm hearing you breathe
be near, that's what i wish you to be
your smile on my moon, i wish to see
so i call this one summer night mine
musical melodies ring my mind
on the tune of songs sweet and divine
oh, the stars're talking to me it seems
nighttime passes me by with dreams
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Monday, May 19[8:31 PM] i wonder what happens if i let gigi read all this. hi gigi :)
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Friday, May 16[3:20 AM] hay. all's ok uli :)
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Wednesday, May 14[7:16 PM] in just a week, i get my heart broken. again. great. just great.
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Thursday, May 8[6:49 PM] it was a nice night last night. before i went to megamall, i went back at the condo to decide if i should wear the striped long sleeves, or just the dark blue collared shirt i was wearing. i thought the striped one would look kind of funny, so i just used the latter. after spraying myself with two squirts of Joop!, i went to the mall and sent her the list of movies we could watch.
i then waited at Power Books and bought myself a CD of the Mohicans (something like Enya and Enigma). she's worrying that she's gonna be late, but that's fine with me. there's not enough misery in the world that night to piss me in any way. around 8:00 pm, i then saw a flustered, chinky-eyed lady entering the door pointing at her shoes -- one of the strings on her right shoe tore off after being hussled by some guy in the MRT.
i gave her a grin and a chuckle, before we went out of the store and up to the 5th floor to meet her bestfriend. there i waited til she was able to borrow staplers and tapes to repair her shoe. i volunteered to buy some super glue for it (lots of other uses for me too), but she declined. i busied myself with the Time Magazine i bought back at Power Books featuring the movie The Matrix Reloaded as well as pictures she brought for me to take a look. after that, we said fairwell to her best friend and went down the 3rd floor where the cinemas are located.
there we watched Anger Management midway (we were really late :D). the movie is ok, we chuckled here and there, but i've seen funnier movies where my sides would've burst. we left the place at around 11:00, which is kind of late because she usually reaches home at that time. we were supposed to have taken a stroll to the place where i work which is just behind the mall, but we thought better and just went to find a ride home. we did take a stroll actually, in Park Square in Ayala, when we found out there were no more shuttles to her home in Las Pinas.
so there, we decided to just take the bus going there. before she left, i gave her a little book which i got from the book store where we first met. wasn't able to give the letter i wrote though. it didn't feel right to give it.
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Wednesday, May 7[1:45 AM] tomorrow i'll be taking her to the movies. i'm going to meet her best friend too. after all that, we're gonna take a stroll to the place where i work. wish there'll be more time to talk about stuff. hope all goes well.
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Monday, May 5[5:58 PM]
piece 05062003
i guess i'll be
listening to my cds
but it's alright
i have you to smile about
maybe
i can simply spend a day
just enjoying you're
out there, doing fine
and not at all unwell
perhaps
when i look at the
ceiling tonight
sleep will come to me
and not the will-be thoughts
like
how long will i be
held at arm's length?
and decide if you'll
let me stay, or fly away?
but
that question is
thrown back to me
funny, because i have
my answers already
before
i even asked it to you
i am to stay, will you believe?
if you don't answer
then the more i'll stay, 'til you do
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